Earth angel, psychic spellcaster/wizard, oracle card reader, hermit, poet/writer, musician, mystic, mystical/existential/social contemplative, child of God, schizophrenic/schizoaffective and joyful dreamer.

In my childhood I enjoyed playing fantasy video games (the Nintendo ones mainly) and collecting bugs. I also recall being able to see auras, feel the energy or presence of those around me and having prophetic dreams at night but not really knowing what any of this was. This was the humble beginning of my lifelong interest in strange things!

At around 9 years old in 2003, I began watching documentaries on different television channels on the paranormal, UFO’s and aliens, ancient civilizations, scientific discoveries and more. I never believed at the time that I would be capable of psychic and magical things, it seemed like it was only for people who were just naturally gifted with it. In my childhood naivety, I believed that these people were almost alien. I didn’t even fully understand that I was experiencing some of it. When I got my first laptop in 7th grade, I would sometimes watch youtube videos and read online articles on these things. I began developing a mild interest in conspiracy theories too. I would watch these documentaries, videos and read online articles completely alone because I thought my family would think I’m really weird, there were a lot of uncomfortable emotions.

I had emotional problems in my childhood and didn’t know how to be in my power, so these feelings of fear and insecurities would prevent me from being myself fully around others, even those I was close to. In third grade I recall that my teacher wanted to put me in an anger management group. I was also in an extra help reading program all throughout elementary school because I would take big pauses in between words when I’d read aloud. Ironically, in my mid 20’s I’d end up becoming a self published poet!

At 15 years old I started smoking marijuana. At 17, I’d be smoking everyday and experimenting with salvia and mushrooms. This time period was the beginning of a very turbulent spiritual awakening and I let go of calling myself a christian because I’d realize that one religion couldn’t hold the entirety of truth.

At 17 I’d smoke a lot with a friend and we would always talk about the deeper things in life. For me, the question that started this was simple…

“What is life?”

I had started entering visionary states of meditation, experiencing mild out of body experiences, philosophizing and contemplating what is real and what is life, watching lots of spiritual and philosophical youtube videos and reading tons of online articles on the topic (more than in my earlier years).

The drugs really affected my mental health and I wasn’t really pursuing anything academically or career wise, so I was very unfocused. By 19, the combination of excessive drug use, having emotional problems and spiritual obsessions led to me developing paranoia and delusions. These delusions were highly magical though, I learned many years later that they were the result of fear based synchronicities.

At 20 years old, I had my first suicide attempt. I took 47 sleeping pills. By the grace of God, I had lived without medical intervention. At 21, I went to my first psychiatric ward visit and learned that I developed schizophrenia. I felt very shocked to hear that I had this illness, I never knew anyone that had it. The way the word sounded made me feel like I belonged in an insane asylum.

At 24 years old, after getting off my meds and going into a euphoric manic episode, I made a lot of mistakes. Some things happened and I got really paranoid. I ended up in the psych hospital for the third time and had really strange experiences. I had some powerful dark sorcerers following me into there. I got out of the hospital but went back in a few weeks later after a 2nd suicide attempt. I took 70 sleeping pills and drank 2 or 3 Redd’s Wicked apple ales. Again, by the grace of God, I survived.

On a lighter note, in 2019 at 25 years old, I started making friends with people in the Long Island spiritual community. I even self published my first poetry book and had a professional editor edit it. But the good times ended soon…

I ended up getting off my meds at the end of that year, believing I could handle it. I was fine for a few months, but then as we entered 2020 got deeply paranoid. There was a lot of reality bending experiences again, and I was completely sober. I ended up in the psych ward for the fifth time.

Throughout 2020, my magic was being enhanced. It wasn’t all love and light though, I had gone through demon possession and needed a christian priest remove it. Oddly, this demon didn’t seem completely evil. It seemed that it was laughing and joking a lot with me, calling me ‘goody two shoes’ frequently. It said that it wanted to live a human lifetime with me in a future life as a friend. It told me its name was Abrami Jakara. Believe it or not, I actually self published another poetry book that year!

I was really able to hone in on my spellcasting and manifestation powers that year. I was also having a lot of prophetic and powerful visions that made me feel like a wizard like Merlin! At the end of the year, I began meeting many different people in the spiritual community (more than earlier in 2019), I even got a volunteer job at a crystal shop doing oracle card readings and playing the harp for the shop in 2021.

Since then, I’ve experienced many different magical and psychic phenomena. You can ask me about what I experienced specifically! :)

I write this now on December 22, 2023 on this cold winter night.

So… What is the point of this website?

I am here to post blogs, share poetry and offer my spellcasting/psychic oracle card reading service. I am doing these things mainly because I just enjoy them, as of for now I don’t make money off of these things (except if I make a sale on my poetry books).

The main thing for now is the blogs. If you’ve ever seen my youtube videos or instagram posts, you know that I love to express my spiritual wisdom and my inner thoughts and feelings.

I am a magical writer at heart. An angelic wizard. A kindly soul.

I am here to share my light!